disappointed

Well, I guess it is not my time to have a puppy. I found a beautiful little black and white pitbull at an animal rescue (thank you Amanda) and I put in an application to adopt her. I was told she was still available and to be at the rescue Saturday at 11 to see her. Was there and another lady already had her on a leash and was filling out paperwork. We were very upset as we had already done the adoption paperwork yesterday, but I guess it was not to be. They tried to talk me into another dog but.......when you have your heart set on one pup you can't just turn it off. I guess God will let me know when it is time.... I hope it is soon because I really miss having dogs, their unconditional love keeps me going when times get emotionally tough.

January 29, 2010

2010, I can't believe I am writing that year! It seems so ancient, yet I feel so young! When I was a child my sister and I used to say "How old will we be in the year 2000?" and our thought would be "old, really old". I guess it felt that way back then. My cousin Ingrid sent me a link to the Blog that Kelley created about dealing with her thoughts and emotions after her beloved brothers untimely death, it made me both cry and laugh and made me with that blogs were around when my sister Paula went to be with God. Ingrid sent me a challenge, she said it's never too late to start something new, so here goes.

I missed her so much (and still do). I used to fool myself by saying that she was on another one of her trips and would be back soon and it made it easier for a while. But I had to come to the reality that she was gone, she wouldn't see my children grow up to be adults, they had lost their beloved auntie Poo and I sobbed. I felt my heart break and I thought I would never be whole again. But my faith in God and knowing that Paula is indeed where she belongs and where she wanted to be made it possible to keep moving forward with my life.

I know that many people loved Paula, she was a truly loving person who did not judge others and loved unconditionally.